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  • Writer's pictureArtisha Bolding

If you only knew what I was gonna be after the storm you wouldn't have even bothered me.

-Tye Tribbett & G.A.

These words are from the song "I Want It All Back" on the 2006 Victory Live album. This 3rd album released by Tye Tribbett & Greater Anointing is one of my all time favorites. I'm sure you'll see more of it here. I ran to Walmart (I believe it was) and purchased this CD as soon as it dropped and I played it over and over and over again. I thought sure it would burn out, but I was fully prepared to buy a new one if it did.

I love it because it not only has unique arrangements and is drastically different from other contemporary gospel music, but the entire album has a flow to it. It pulls you in, excites you and ministers to you. That's a killer combination which makes it an album that you play straight through, no skips. For nearly 2 years consecutively this is all I would listen to on the way to and coming from church on Sundays. Without noticing, I actually hadn't listened to the album in quite some time. Occasionally the radio would bless me with one of the tunes and I would get excited, but that was it.

A NOTE TO MY READERS: One thing you'll come to know about me is that I am always talking to two people- myself and God. I'm famous for doing what my mom calls "thinking out loud." I talk to myself and yes I answer myself too. With that I'm also always praying- asking for insight and instruction on even the smallest of things. I've been called crazy, but I don't care about that at all. Just the other day as I was starting my workout I was searching YouTube for some up tempo music that would help me push through. I thought to myself I don't want pop, I don't want electronica, I want some praise music. I want to honor and acknowledge God as I care for this temple He gave me. So I knew I wanted an album or playlist that I could play straight through and not have to fiddle with (besides the dumb ads on YT). My mind first went to Wow Gospel. They have a variety of artists and songs and that should give me what I need for 45-50 minutes. After clicking around a bit I realized that I couldn’t put my finger on which year I liked better 1999 or 2000. Not wanting to waste any time or momentum, my next thought was Tye Tribbett. I entered the album name, select, play and I was off. I immediately felt a boost in energy. My smile was wide, my hands were raised, and my heart rate was increasing.

And then this particular song comes on. Let me tell you it fires me up every time. The lyrics that are the subject of this post hit me totally different in 2021 then they did in 2006 and 2007. I had to contain myself.

Everybody loves a comeback story right? Well there is one who hates it. Unless of course it's pertaining to him. The enemy of your soul hates to see you claw your way back to the top. He hates to see you progressing. He hates to see your light shining for good and not evil. And so He tries to dim our light. Actually if he can't flip us he tries to snuff us out. But what I was taught and know to be true is that he's not all-seeing or all-knowing. He has no idea what will be the thing to really bring about our demise. He just throws a bunch of stuff at us to see what will stick. Oh, but I need to tell you if he had known what I would turn into after trying to sully my name, ruin my marriage and take my life, he would have left me alone. He should have left me alone! So now I want it ALL back. I want the time, money, energy, peace, love and joy he stole from me during my wartime ordeal. And me being the the one-upman I am, now that I'm out, I'm going to make sure that other women don't go through what I did. I'm going to share my challenges and life lessons to empower women all over the world to make better choices. He brought me strife and turned me into a disrupter. My work, my words shake hell and now the enemy has to pay. He really shouldn't have bothered me at all. ATB

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